Trial by fire
Searching for answers on why it’s so hard to be a christian in a military organisation, especially as a junior NCO.
Command is a wonderful experience that teaches you lifelong lessons, but when the upper hierachy values black and white deliverables to the extreme it gets difficult to remain focused on the means by which you achieve those deliverables and in creeps the temptation to compromise ethics and biblical values to get to the end.
As a junior commander from which professionalism and competence is highly demanded from, it gets very demoralising when others, not necessarily my peers, let personal matters cloud their judgement and responsibility in ensuring a fair workload for everyone even though I’d readily admit I’m far from perfect in this area.
I shan’t go into specifics to make sure I don’t get mysterious letters and men in suits knocking on my door. But I guess the problems and challenges which I face are more or less derived from the utter depravity of mankind. The onus therefore lies within me to avoid the temptation of following the footsteps of others who have compromised values. I too need to stop conforming myself to the expectations and demands of others in a manner that is Christlike.
But I’m failing terribly and my flaws only get exaggerated in this military environment.
http://retrospection.posterous.com/trial-by-fire in retrospect